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this has nothing to do with jose's law ha. haha joke lang.

on a heavier note, i know what i want. i just don't know how to get it. or for more, i don't have any idea where to get it. i'm atat, that's why i wanna go straight to law school. but then, despite the convenience (that dlsu is in makati) and the benefit of also acquiring an mba degree, i still long to go to up. but i know it's gonna be hard. there's the uncertainty of not passing the lae. or if i do pass, there's the possibility of death brought by the fact that it's in diliman and i will be coming from makati. but nevertheless, i want to go to law school. and i want to go to my law school of choice. but i can't choose right now. i told myself that if i pass dlsu, i'll start thinking. but i know that i'll still go for it because i'm really atat. lord help me.

if, by any chance, you happen to know this secret blog, i just want you to realize that apart from the fact that i do like you, you are also one of my most treasured friends. and i can't afford to lose our friendship. i need you, because you always listen. i need you because with you i don't pretend. you know me too well. you know about my rantings, my issues. you are the person i can talk to at 1 whenever i'm sad. you're the one person who can wake me up at 3 am whenever i have schoolwork. i can't afford to lose all those things.

so if by chance, you know about this secret blog. hear this please. mr. palomar i miss you. i miss you not because you are the person that i like but because you are an important friend to me. there i said it.

matagal ko nang pinangarap ang gabing yun. sobrang tagal na. isang linggo na lang sana magaganap na sya. kaso andyan ka e. at alam kong kahit hindi kasing tagal ng pangangarap ko e pinapangarap mo na rin ang gabing yun, sa parehong dahilan ng akin. mas matagal nga ako, kung tutuusin mas may karapatan akong mangarap. kaso mas may pinanghahawakan ka e. at siguro nga mas may pagkakataon ka na matupad iyong pangarap natin. kaya good luck. galingan mo a. wag mong sayangin.

o baka naman hindi mo na kailangang maghintay ng isang linggo, kasi baka pag-uwi nyo, nagkatotoo na pala ang pangarap mo.

hindi ko na dapat 'to nararamdaman. alam ko na naman na aalis na ako diba? umpisa pa lang naman kasalanan ko na. hinayaan ko e. hinayaan ko kahit alam kong wala naman talaga itong kahihinatnan, gusto mo man ako o hindi. kaya wala akong karapatang sisihin ka o sisihin sinuman. hindi naman tayo magkaibigan nung una. naging malapit lang tayo bigla. pero tangina. tangina. sanay na dapat ako diba? pero bakit ganun? tangina. yun na lang. tangina.

mamimiss kita.

i hate getting jealous. it sucks. and it sucks even more when you realize that you have every reason but you will never have the right.

oh and by the way, thanks for making me feel like you wanted to tell me, "in your face, i don't like you."

ang galing mo talaga kahit kailan. hindi ko tuloy magets kung bakit nadidisappoint ka pa sa sarili mo.

tangina tangina tangina. bahala ka, aalis na ako.

oh fuck. iam overreacting. tangina mahal na ata kita.

hay.